I’m done showing you ONLY the prettier side of my embodiment practice
I wasn’t consciously censoring it.
I’m just not usually thinking about social media when I’m practicing this deeply.
But I’m realizing that so much of my work is in the dark.
On both levels.
Meaning, I don’t show it on social.
And because it’s literally about working with shadow and the dark emotions.
And right now in the world, shit is DARK AF.
And I imagine a lot of people are feeling despair, grief and Rage.
And it’s time I show you what’s really helpful.
My life has had so much darkness (and equal amounts of light.)
But something about my path with my Scorpio sun and moon and my first seven years on this planet in a war zone…
Something about that and my sensitivity has led me to the deep work of shadow emotions.
Kali-Ma is sort of my default energy.
This video (really take the time to watch all three mins) is an example of me working somatically, with my two default FEAR responses: FIGHT and FREEZE.
When my body senses danger, she oscillates between cynical warrior and collapsed victim energy. And so here I am allowing my body to move into each stage and the softly and gently allowing my breath to alchemize and move me out of that state to find a place of balance.
Instead of clenching fists and closed heart, I practice moving into an open palm NO… boundaried but still able to receive.
Instead of a caved in heart and head hung low, I allow my breath to fill me up and raise my spine to a place of honest exhaustion and dignity… instead closing off to everything.
This is what is happening in a video that looks like I might be “losing my mind”.
I’m losing my mind… that’s true. But in the best way. I’m allowing my body’s wisdom to take over.